I am I.

The human mind as conditioned can’t comprehend beyond the pair of opposites. When the mind dies, is when you see yourself as you ARE!

The knowledge of “I” can not be shared or grasped by the instruments of senses, intellect, ego and mind ( thoughts). For as long as they dictate terms ( they control the entire creation) we are unaware of our identity.

Perhaps the only indicative words to comprehend the ‘I’ can be-

I am I. The “background” on which all pairs of opposites originate, sustain and  destroyed. The ‘I’ can get identified with a wave of the river (energy) or to be what it IS.

When the ‘I’ gets identified with the wave of the river, it becomes that, i.e. the wave, it flows, ever changing… yet there is some thing static in the observer, which wants to hold on to things. The intent is right only the direction inappropriate.

Can   you hold  water in palms?  Rather than trying in vain  a whole life-time to hold some thing  whose nature is movement . Why don’t you try to know the observer in  you?

Who is the observer?  What is the observer? Where is the observer?  What is the observer looking for? Can the observer get satisfied with any object?

Remember any thing other that you or outside you is an object for you! (  any thing of the matter, family,  friends, relations, desires, thoughts, ideals, work, ethics, philosophy, intelligence, beauty, religion- some are more subtle then others ).

Remember any thing other than you!

I am I

The Only Observer!

AUM

Sex of the body satisfies the senses, mind and the ego in you, while the sex of the divine vanishes the senses, mind and ego in you.It is the sweetest thing that can ever happen to you. Its a state of Oneness that is completely relaxed, blissful , ever healed and full.

Sex of the divine satisfies all the deep and often hidden emotional and psychological needs/desires of the seeker, accumulated over many births. It exposes you to your real Self AS IT IS, which is without any wanting, longing or hurt!

In this sacred act there is no object, no image and no form. All that IS, is the pure feeling engulfing your entire being. In this feeling the observer and object have lost there identities.

Sex of the Divine is a state of utter INTOXICATION and ONENESS within and without! This state is ever with you, only you are not aware of it!

AUM AUM AUM!

Self is  like a stone by the river Ganges

We are similar to stones lying along the river Ganges. The great  river of  energy, which only knows to flow, flow and flow. And in its flow, the river creates , sustains and destroys various waves, which are nothing but its manifestation. The waves of the river create the physical and sub-conscious worlds that we live in as humans. The manifestations  in this river of energy changes form and name as often  and as easily as you can blink your eye lid.

In a flash  pure becomes impure, a righteous person  becomes devilish, in a  flash Masters and Gods  appear and disappear. In a flash water vanishes into ether, in a flash fire appears from the ether and consumes all matter. Energy  only changes  forms and names, but remains as what it is.

Their is  no permanence in these manifestation of the energy. Human body, intellect,  mind, thoughts and desires are also part of  this  great river. And as they are manifestations of the river, they also have no permanence.  A body which has taken birth, grows and then decays. So also is the flow  of the  mind, which originates from nowhere in form of a idea or thought,  fully attracts  the observers attention for  some time and then vanishes in to  some thing.   Our thoughts  are the waves  of the  mind, which  flows  continuously. They can’t be stopped, for their nature is to  flow.

The only thing which is not a manifestation of the  eternal  river of energy is the observer in you. The observer  is  not part of the river.  It  cannot be. For if it was part the river then, its nature should also be to flow continuously.  Weather  your parents die, you loose a well payed job or  your  partner leaves you. Why should  you feel sad, why don’t you say ” I have had enough time  with my parents  now, its time to part ways”.

In the world of  flow  the  observer is   constantly seeking  permanence.

The  feeling of permanence is intrinsic to the SELF. It is  the very nature of the STONE, which is  lying  by the  river Ganges. When the stone identifies  with the river or its  waves , it almost instantly  becomes the  water of the river  or the manifested. And as manifested  it  follows  certain laws i.e. of birth,growth and death. At First, the stone ( observer) enjoys to  be the water and  its nature of flow. But even in the experience of  being the manifested and being the  flow, it searches  for permanency. Permanency of happiness, permanency of form, names,   permanency of pleasure, permanency of relationships, permanency of  concepts and belief systems.

Every time a wave ( of form and name) arises  in this  river of energy, the  observer feels that  this wave  could be  the one  the observer is  searching for. This  wave   could  take the form of your lover , whom you never meet. This wave  could be in the form of a  Guru whom you have been always waiting  for.  These waves arise for the observer  all the time and every time, until  it  identifies  its self with water of the river.

When the observer is  totally dejected and anguished   in  its search for permanency in a ever changing world. In a flash some thing happens. The Observer sees its self AS IT IS .  It realizes that its not the water of the river, but a  stone lying by the banks of the  the river.

This stone never moves, its  totally  different from water, it has no journey, it  never had a start  or destination,  it  does not   have to  seek any thing, for IT IS. In fact even  when it  thought that it was  the water of the river, it sort only ITSELF (the permanence aspect).

Our SELF never moves or changes, it is the only thing that is  permanent!

WHAT IS!

Aum Babaji, Jai Maa

On the road to enlightenment we have to be Naked!

On the  road to  enlightenment we  have to  be naked. Naked and bare as the absolute Self.  Their is little use  if we practice strict spiritual disciple  and  meditate  for long durations.  Until  we are able to see  our self as we are in the ego state and willing  to shed  our clothes one by one in the fire of Shakti.

In  this process of  finding whether we are naked our  wearing layers of clothes, ( of identification  and attachment) , experience helps. Be aware   during experiences, try to watch yourself  similar to a  third person.  See the reactions and  counter actions  closely, watch the tempers, the drawing of lines, emotional outburst, secretion of glands  and all the physical chemistry  and instinct of such an experience or an act. As  you become more and more an aware, you will see that in most cases, even after  you are not enjoying the experience  thoroughly or  trying to refrain  from reacting to the  situation in a certain manner, there seems to be a great power which  compels  you  to react in  a manner, much in  conflict to  your  will or inner being.

With time  you either shut up   the  inner voice  of the higher self or live in  constant  conflict, between your inner being and this  great force of instincts and conditioning .

This extra ordinary power of   response and pattern ( also know as instincts)  belongs to Shakti,and   you can’t  suppress or  control it completely.  If  you have be doing so, then  know  that  it might take  less than a straw of imagination  to break this  dam of  emotions and  flood   your reactions  with utter wildness and haste.

So  if  you can’t control or suppress  these instincts or  natural reactions, can you  not channelize it ?

Yes,  you can re-direct  to   your inner passions   and instincts which trouble your inner being to a higer image of the Self. But still  its  a process of channelizing or re-directing, which  involves  a certain degree of choice. And  where their is  choice   there is  no  real freedom( only  freedom in relative terms).

As  you become  more serious and honest about your spiritual search and  are not contended with  only channelizing  your emotions, reactions and instincts . You will   then address these issue at the very core, from where they arise.

As  you  go deeper into the very nature of  your Self, you will discover that  there are layers and layers of  clothes on you, that need to be  removed. These  clothes are not   that easy to remove as the physical once.

As all these clothes  are nothing  but  strong  sense  of  identification  and resulting attachment  with the role  you are  playing on this earthy plane ( and  other planes).

For instance, identification  with the role  of a male will lead to  a  conditioned physical  attraction and attachment with females  roles. Sex and the  constant urge  for experiencing sexual pleasure has to be dealt at this level, at its core.

To be a  real celibate in thought, word and deed means more than just  following certain  principles , practicing  yoga and tantric techniques. But to be totally non-identified and unattached with your role on earth of male or female.

Through watchfulness   during various  experiences  the seeker  can  figure out  these subtle layers of identification and attachment. But the process doesn’t end with  just awareness but  with offering of these clothes in the fire of Shakti.

As one  sincerely offers  the  identification with the  role,   Shakti automatically  starts burning  these thick  layers of clothes, one by one into ashes. Until   the seeker is totally  naked, totally bare  just like the  Absolute  Self.

I AM THAT

The only difference between  a realized being and  a being  living in illusion, is that a realized being is no longer seeking any thing. His or her heart is FULL, just like  some one with a filled  up stomach.  A person with filled up stomach  is quite, calm and  doesn’t  crave any thing more. He is complete. He is  IT, he is THAT!

While a being in illusion may seem to be  enjoying every moment of  his  or her role on this plane, but  from within he or she is  constantly seeking some  thing, which  is  missing, which  he or she  is aware of but does not know were to find  or how to  find.

Beings in illusion try their best to be the  role they are playing. Infant  they  are so much identified and attached with the roles, that  they   become the character themselves. So, if the character they are playing has to suffer they also  suffer, or if the  character has to enjoy the senses   then they also  are  drunk with enjoyment.

Beings (in illusion) try to fulfill their longing with the things of this world. So either they take  up material things  to extreme or  take  up a  religion and a  Guru to extreme. But even after all this, the being suffers  constantly  and  weeps during hours  of seclusion and night.

Their is  nothing  wrong in following any religion to extreme or   having a Guru. But by sticking  to the outer religion  or the Guru  he  or she may not be able to quench  the thirst for  completeness and wholeness.

While  a realized being is aware that  IT is  the start and end of the search. That all he was searching for was nothing but his or her’s awakened SELF. When  such  a realization dawns , then the being  can  play  their earthy  roles  with  greater clarity  and at the same time enjoy   ITS  own nature, which is every new, ever fresh and ever awakened.

Let  us be what we ARE!

AUM TAT SAT!

In the neighborhood of Masters as One sits engrossed in the  eternal fire of Shakti.  One sees various forms and figures, feel various emotions and sounds, watches  the intellect of the  cosmic mind, And yet  the One is  indifferent to any. For the One all actions, movements, flow and  Kriya belong  to fire of the Shakti.

In this state, One  observers that each  thought, feeling, sensation  and form arising, sustaining and ending  in the One, corresponds to the various flames of the fire of Shakti.  Not only  does  all these sensations, feelings, thoughts and forms  correspond to the various flames of the fire of Shakti, but they are nothing but the flames of  fire of Shakti itself.

In fact, it  is the flames of the fire of Shakti which  is  and  has become every  thing in this  universe.  The  one source  which manifests as many.

During such intense  periods  around the sacred fire, Shakti takes the form of a  aroused serpent, similar to the position of the snake around Lord Shiva’s neck.  The serpent  is centered at the base of the spine  and  raises its  hood to the level of the third eye. The arousal of the serpent is the indication  that  Shakti or Kundalini  is  her self willing  to reveal the higher secrets of the creation to the One.

In the neighborhood of Masters, the One is nothing but the SELF!

In the neigbourhood of Masters!

Jau Maa, Jai Babaji

As One is born in  the  neighborhood of Masters. One sits  unmoved watching the eternal fire of Shakti  in a circle -like shaped group of celestial beings  who  are engrossed in  vedic chants which flow from all directions. The lure of the holy fire seamlessly melts the five elements that were glued to the Self for long.

All the while  you thought that these elements were  yours , you even thought that these were you!  But now they almost effortlessly melt and flow towards their source, the fire. These elements originate from   the fire of Shakti and evaporate in it.

As the purification process intensifies, the seemingly compassionate fire grows to astonishing scale and in its glorious flames even the observer is consumed.

What might remain then is nothingness…….which is what we are!

May the fire of Shakti consume you completely!

Jai Maa, Jai Babaji

During the holy period of Navaratri ( night days and nights dedicated to the  Divine Mother ), Mahavatar Babaji and group of celestial  beings can be  seen, felt and heard sitting  around the eternal fire of Shakti.  During  this  period, at the  earnest  plea  of the seeker the  Celestial  Master , one by one offers   the  attachments of the  seeker (with his or her image/role on earth)  into  the holy fire,  so  the seeker may be born in the neighborhood of  Masters.

Being born in the neighborhood  of  Celestial Masters is nothing, but  awakening   in the SELF,   our eternal and indestructible nature. The ONE which IS.

AUM , AUM , AUM!

The  worship of divine mother as Kali opens the doors of the  soul to the infinite almost instantly. The worship of Kali  is  the acceptance   that  the good, bad and ugly energies of this creation come from one source, are manifested in the One and also merger in to the One. The day the ego  fully accepts this truth, all the knowledge and awareness of the ego will be lost  into the infinite ocean of bliss and Oneness.

Jai Maa, Aum Babaji!

“Come Out Children, Come out. For the Self is all alone”

Mahavatar Babaji is Completeness (Purna) Itself!

Ever since the transformation in this body, we have been traveling and sharing the love of the Self with receptive souls. What we are sharing can’t be framed into a path, guru, tradition, religion or sect, for we are sharing the knowledge of the Self, which is All, which is Complete and which is Full. Duality and non-duality, guru-disciple, love-hatred, still -restless, control -freedom, happiness- sadness, desires – desirelesnes, sinner- saint, mind and no-mind exist and yet they have very little meaning in terms of  our true nature and identity. For the Self is indescribable, incomprehensible and unknowable by the instruments of this world.

The real Self is essentially a Feeling. A Feeling not of senses or  a mental state but the  indestructible Feeling centered in the inner invisible heart. This Feeling resides in all beings of this creation, and yet it’s also the best kept secret and mystery.

It seems difficult to share and comprehend such a Feeling with the limited instruments of senses, mind and intellect. Let alone to share such a Feeling through certain patterns of search, exercise, philosophy and techniques. Normally it’s the readiness and unceasing call of the recipient soul, which aids in the ‘uncovering’ of this unknowable knowledge.  This uncovering happens from the Self and to the Self, some time intuitively and some times abruptly. We (physical forms of teacher, guru, guide, friends, parents) are images, which act as a catalyst for the uncovering at various levels. Although physical forms and names are images and part of the dream -state, they are nevertheless part of the Self, as the Self is All.

Mahavatar Babaji’s Council to his Children

Since early childhood, Mahavatar Babaji had been attracting me in many unseen and unrecognizable ways. My long duration of soul cry locked in a hidden room, were not unheard and unnoticed by the immortal Master. The cry for freedom, for happiness, for perfection, for things that could satisfy me, for the suffering in the society and the fate of humanity. What I could not see at that time was how subtly, Babaji was guiding my entire search at various junctures of life. Deep impressions of finding  Lord Shiva by tracing the origin of Ganges through  its physical route,  Babaji’s  magic wand touch  during a pilgrimage to Sabarimala Temple in Kerela, Yogannandaji’s  influence  in  our early family life, guidance and initiation from Masters of various  traditions, Lahiri Mahasaya’s  friendship, Mataji’s constant companionship and the appearance and initiation by the lord himself ( Mahavatar Babaji).

Babaji has revealed himself to me in various forms, shapes and names. The oneness of Babaji is  the oneness of our being. Oneness, which radiates all the colors of the creation, and yet is colorless its self. Every master, religion, path, technique comes from Babaji, it is Babaji and vanishes in the un-manifested Babaji.

For his dear children who can’t see the formless reality, Babaji has taken up a simple form and name ( In India there might be more than a couple of million  persons with the name, Babaji). Initially, he visits the child in the specified form, and at the destined time (when the child is spiritually ripe) he unveils his glorious formless form.

Once, I asked Babaji, about the seeming stress to promote Kriya (Kriya means action, there are numerous kriya’s know and unknown to men, which effectively aid in  self-realization) in relation to other mediation techniques. He smilingly pointed to small size black color box which lay next to him, and said “Child, all mediation, contemplation  and yoga techniques come from my toolbox, never get attached to any. Kriya was revived  through Lahiri as it was lost on earthly plane”. Saying this he initiated me into various unknown techniques. The Purna (complete) wisdom and love of Babaji is central to our message. It’s the foundation and the understanding with which we share insights and techniques.

How can i put this message across to millions of faithful Kriya practitioners, who adore Babaji essentially from a Kriya lineage? How can I share, the completeness of Babaji and this message with Kriya practitioners, who have identified more with the techniques, than the essence of Babaji? With these questions I fervently, prayed to Babaji. For days, there was no answer. I thought may be Babaji doesn’t want me to interfere in this matter or he is suggesting me to follow the organic pattern of things, and let time reveal how, where and what. I let this question slip through my mind and shifted attention inward.

One night while sleeping, I witnessed a strange dream. In the dream some one was asking me to “come out, come out”. On waking, I saw the watch and it was time for meditation. As I sat in silence, I observed the chatter of my mind, it was not the content of the dream which was taking my attention, but a certain type of kinetic movement of the mind that disturbed me. The mind was unusually talkative for that time of early dawn. But I persisted with the practice, as usually  after a while the mind dies its own death. But hours flew by and yet the mind was highly active, giving ideas, suggestions and making judgments. The chattery of the mind reached to a point where, I started to question the need to sit down and mediate in silence. I thought perhaps I could do with out mediation today ! As soon as, this thought came to me. Lo! Abruptly, a blissful aura blew from everywhere and nowhere, and I was transported to a different location.

It was spacious living room, with charming wooden flooring and ceiling. The only furniture in the room was a wooden table and a bench on the side I was sitting. There was no one else in the room except, a figure and me. This figure was dressed in a gray color monastic robe with a headgear and sat at a distance from me on my right. I couldn’t identify the figure  as  its head was covered and didn’t really feel the need to inquire. The room’s dazzling wooden flooring and ceiling along with the aura hinted that perhaps we were in a cold region, but I knew that I had been in this room before. However, ‘when’ was the question.

After I had finished scanning the room, there  was a knock on the front door of the room which was on my left hand side. I presumed that it was for me to get up and open the door. As I walked towards the door, I called out, who is it?  A human voice said,  “its me, your friend”. I couldn’t recognize the voice and didn’t expect any of my friends  to appear  at  that place or time. Being a little suspicious about the identity of the person knocking the door. I reached the  front door and bend down to peep through the  key hole located under the door handle. As I peeped through the seemingly large keyhole, I saw only mystical lights of various colors dancing on a black background with Kundalini-like-energy. I was astonished not to find any physical  or human form. A bit nervous, I was thinking whether to open the door or not. My only companion in the room was still in silence with head bend down as if nothing was happening. Seeing my companions response, I inferred that it was  for me to decide, to open or not to open the door to the mysterious stranger. As soon as this thought had ended, the  mysterious stranger again called out. This time by my name. “Arjun, don’t worry , I am  your long time friend”. I peeped again through the key hole. This time I saw circles of light moving with great force like that of a hurricane. But the light  and the  patterns  now seemed  comforting and friendly. Following which I decided to open the door for this strange and formless friend of mine.

As I opened the door I was amazed to see, a medium built  young person with a beautiful smile on his face. His face radiated such love and  glow   that I was  invariably sucked  to his charm. After a while as I lifted my gaze. I saw some one similar to Lahiri  Baba standing behind  the stranger-friend at some distance. As if to indicated that, he was the helper or guard. I shifted my gaze farther to the background, which was all black when I saw through the key hole.  However, now the background was that of a hilltop, with a breathing taking view of the planes. The hilltop seemed green, serene and an ideal place for contemplation. On the left hand side of the hilltop was a large stone, which almost stood like a  grand tree blocking my vision. The hilltop view seemed very familiar to me, I had been at this place many times before, I was certain about it.

Feeling  a bit relaxed now, I shifted my gaze back to the strangely charming friend. As soon as I did that, the stranger said in a deeply loving voice, “ Come out, Arjun, Come out!” and offered his right hand, which seemed  to suggest a handshake. I was  puzzled  for a while, what does it mean and entail. The stranger’s call certainly resonated with my inner being and he also seemed to have my highest interest in mind. Yet, I was wary of the unknown world outside. Half turned I looked back to my silent companion in the room for advice. Unlike earlier, this time the silent companion raised his head and looked straight at me. As I saw closely,  the companions  figure changed to the form of Mataji. I said, “It was Mataji all the while with me and I didn’t recognize her”.  As I looked at the Mataji’s serene face, with the thought whether I should accept the strangers invitation. She instantaneously responded with a clear nod. After getting her assurance and seeing Lahiri Baba near by, it seemed that it was just a matter of time and that I had to accept the invitation.

I gazed finally at the room with happiness (for leaving the limited) and a bit of sadness (for the attachment with the room) . The stranger was still holding his hand towards me. I finally, moved my right hand towards him to symbolize my acceptance. As I moved my hand closer to his hand, I noticed that his hand was not in a position of handshake, as it seemed earlier, but that of some one lending a helping hand to pull out. I exclaimed,  I thought this person was here to help me! He said we were friends and so equal. But the position of his hand indicates that it’s me who needs him. That I am seeking some thing and he is in a position to help me.

Subsequently, all thoughts vanished and my attention shifted  to  the charming stranger’s hand, as it emanated blinding flash white and yellowish light. The light expanded in the pattern of sunrise and was so overwhelming with radiance that I lost myself. After some time, as I  regained physical awareness. I  saw my self seated in a meditative posture on the bed. A great sense  of  coolness prevailed all over. Who was the strangely charming friend, who had offered his hand in great simplicity  to awaken Reality in me?

Tears of joy and gratefulness streamed  down my checks, as I intuitively realized that the strange friend was non other than Mahavatar Babaji. The hill-top location, was  the spot  where Babaji had  initiated me  a couple of years back in Tamil Nadu, India. And the simple but beautiful room which I was a bit reluctant to leave was symbolic of  my attachment to the mind and to the world which the ego ´knew´.

Lord! What a fool am I! I can’t even recognize you? You came in the dream and then again in vision. What is that I am so attached to, that even now I have to think so much before offering my hand to you?  I even suspected you Babaji! I said, and sobbed in deep silence. As I poured my heart out, Babaji’s voice rang with celestial music, “Love! Why even get attached to a still mind? ”

The voice said further,

“Come out, children, come out!

Be with me alone, me alone, me alone.

For the self is all alone, all alone, all alone”.

The following night when the Master visited again with his small group, the first thing I said, almost involuntarily. “Babaji, I want to come out, come out, come out”. There was complete silence in the room now, as I realized the naivety of my reaction. Sensing the comical aura, we all burst out in loud and hearty laughter. Needless to say this to the reader, that this laughter was complete, was whole, and was laughter itself!

Aum Babaji Aum!